Loneliness
Loneliness has finally taken its toll. It has defined my nights…my mornings…my weekends…my Saturday afternoons, and worse of all…me!
It has finally dawned on me. I am lonely in Suburbia! I am in need of a friend…and though there’s my baby, PomPom - whom I was able to retrieve from the vet a couple of weeks past - I still feel that void inside of me. It is beginning to swallow me up inside and sometimes, I can’t help but be more homesick than ever.
I miss mornings with my family. I miss the horrendous Mondays with mom yelling every ten seconds while on the wheel. I miss Saturday afternoons where I would either go to SM or Ayala and have pizza. I miss Sunday mornings in our garden. I miss sweeping the scattered leaves outside our gate. I miss watching all those Filipino sitcoms on weeknights. I miss going to Sunday mass and laughing at the priest’s jokes. I miss sikwate, puto, bud-bud, danggit, larsians, ngoyongan near San Carlos, STK ta bay, Golden Cowrie, AA, and so many others. I even miss our annoying neighbor who plays all the songs from 1950’s to late 1990’s on Sunday mornings. There are so many things I wish I could do right now but in the name of work and adulthood, priorities have to come first! Sad but true! This is my life now and I really wish it isn’t at times! I really wish I could be larger than life or be richer in life so I could do anything I want. Unfortunately, reality bites and it stings you of the grim realities that we all must face somehow-somewhere….
